Ah. As I come up to this Christmas season, I am blessed by so many people. I am blessed by God first and foremost, to hold me and keep me always, even when I am not yet sure of what is happening, I have my friends who even though I don't talk to, see, or have every day, I am still blessed by them so much, and my family, willing to work with me, provide, and to love me as I journey through life!
I'm laughing at the past 6 or so months. My life has been in a huge, dramatic change. Finding where God wants me, has been a challenging task to complete, or will it ever be complete :)
Going from having the most hectic schedule from last August to this August, to having barely anything to find purpose in made me realize where my purpose is, God, always God. Looking for what will complete my life, and make it busy again, cause that is when I thrive most. Haha! God is slowing me down, which I think is a good thing.
I have interviewed at businesses to be a sales executive, to be a worship leader, youth development associate, parent educator, case manager assistant, and that is just the beginning!
Haha! As I've walked through these interviews, met people, seen people, gotten to understand different areas. Ha, I think my journey is just beginning. So far getting 2 out of those many job interviews has been good. The next jump I take we'll see what that is.
Also I have found job hunting is a severe intense moment, and you put your heart into it, and it hurts at points when you don't get call backs, you interview well, and nothing happens. But one thing I know is I can do all I can, but God will open the right doors in the right timing :)
Here I am working retail, and I dislike it majorly. But at least I have a job, am working my way through this journey, and am trusting God. But it's taken a lot to get to this place!
I don't think I ever thought this job search, graduating, and everything would look like this. But it has taught me major things I struggle with, and also things I am good at.
If there is one thing I am thankful for is God giving me purpose, providing in all circumstances, bringing me the right people at the right time, and just blessing me through the journey.
So although it has been challenging not having purpose in a full time job, school, whatever, I know God has a reason for this season, though it's hard to see.
Also I am reminded and have had to remind myself, this is a season, so keep striving for God's call, vision, and just let Him lead you in your life :)
So here I am, job hunting again, but in the midst, volunteering at church, teaching a social justice class, working part time, and sharing time with friends and family.
Jesus. Mhmm. He rings true, ever so true this season. Knowing He lives inside my heart, leads me, and brings me a purpose the world could never take. Ah, and it's taking me this long to finally embrace the uncertainty of life, and trust in God with every part of my life. But here I am. :)
And honestly I have only ideas about the right job for me, where I will end up, will it be staying by all my family in Illinois, in Minnesota where my friends and some of my greatest times in life have been so far, or California where it's nice and warm, haha, God knows, I do not. I have dreams, visions, a God who plans it all out for me, so if you ask Him and He tells you my plan, please let me know, THANKS!
But for now, here I am pursuing God, His call, His love, and there is something so fulfilling, crazy, intense, a free fall, but it's about time :) And I'm so glad I get to start my "ADULT" chapter this way, free falling into God's arms, because it is rewarding to know I always have a plan, but not by my own strength, will, my parents, my schools, it's all about God's divine plan for life.
For my life right now that means trusting, loving, and honoring God in a place I did not want to go to.
But in life you must wait for great things, but remember they will surely come to you :)
Ah, and now here I am, embracing the mystery of God. And this season I truly know Jesus is the reason for the season, and without Him, we are nothing :)
I pray you and yours have a blessed Christmas. And whatever questions you have, lay them down to God, for He will answer all of them in His time, in His PERFECT PLAN :D
Feliz Navidad!
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