Grace Puzzles Me

I think in a world where you always have to do something to earn it, or look good, or whatever the trick is. It freaks me out that someone would want me just for me, without any cost. I have never had a love like that or I can't even fathom that. Does it scare you too? Because I have been a follower of Christ for 16 or so years and it still leaves me amazed that a book that I live by tells this story that no other person can even follow. You may tell me Jesus was not real, but I can't believe that because I know in my heart and through signs and wonders that you are scared of the truth. Because it is not something that can be proven, it can't be something that you know in your mind, but even though that's the scary part, the good part is you give your worries and concerns to someone bigger and they hold you in their hands :)

God has inserted this funny thing into my life where I search things out, am blunt with people, but somehow can remain positive and willing to help anyone. God loves all the people in this world, yes people make mistakes, there are things that are wrong happening in the world. Homosexuality, adultery, murder, lying. They are all wrong. You can say God made you that way, but that is a lie, it says in the bible that all of those things are wrong. Directly pointed out. The truth is hard, but someone needs to say it, we live in a world where we question everything. I'm telling you I am blessed that I accepted God into my heart years ago and found out the truth and the right from wrong. I would never make a different choice because deep down inside you all know it to, you deny it daily.

I'm telling you now I can no longer deny what is right or wrong. It kills me when people do things that are wrong because I honestly look and see them, and I say I want them to be with me in heaven where my treasure is. My treasure is not in my car, my cds, pictures, my humanity, it is in heaven. My treasure is in heaven. I no longer live my life to get by, grow old, die, I live everyday with a mission how can I best impact this world, will it be to help people, will it be to be a mom, will it be to become a hermit?
I'm telling you I would not do anything unless God wanted me to, but after years of being in this relationship with God I have been steered places with Him. His spirit guides me. God says He wants to steal every minute of the day with us, He longs for us. He loves us with this unfathomable love through all our dirt, He loves us, love is a strong word, it's not something you just say to someone. He doesn't want us to do things to earn His love, we give Him our dirt right away and He doesn't expect anything else.

Grace is something that reaches to me. It challenges me to be more humble because if I have done nothing but wrong how could God give something to me free, love for free. When's the last time you gave your love for free?

We were bought at a price but He gives us free choice, He loves us for free without any extra technical things we have to do. Free. Free choice. Free grace. He overlooks what you are doing. Will do. He says as long as you come to me, I will heal and free you.

This whole thing puzzles me but in the end I know living for God is the best thing that ever happened to my life. I would be lost without Him. He took me out of shame, He took me out of a broken family. He healed generational curses. He sanctified me. He brought me to a school my father never would have agreed to let me go to (christian school). He loves me even when I sin against Him or neglect our relationship.

Let me tell you grace is the best thing that can ever be given to you, and no one else in this world besides God will be able to give you this gift with no cost. God is real, Jesus lived, and He wants you. Each and everyone of you to break out of your sinful nature, become new, and get this grace and be a sanctified person, and start using your mistakes, pain, and sorrows to bring glory to His name. But all He wants is your love and devotion. He bought you by sending His son to die on the cross. That is no joke. So be serious about this, if you read this, I encourage you to read a bible or go on biblegateway.com, or just talk to God. It's easy. Talk in your room in silence, put on some worship music. God is there and willing to speak to you. God's presence isn't foreign, it is waiting for you, because He wants us to choose Him.

- Saved by grace <3