Ah, how that scripture speaks to me, deep in my heart. Exodus. Wise words. Sometimes we feel as if we need to fix something, change it, but is that the case? Sometimes when we put our tweaks to fixing things what happens? It crashes and burns. Patience, trust, humbleness to watch the Lord deliver your life, really is a beautiful thing. To what the world teaches of course it is the opposite, fix it now, don't wait, you only live once. The truth is some of the best things come from waiting, trusting God, and surrendering things.
I have dealt with many things in my own life, one day I will be writing a book, on family and how to deal with unhealthy relationships. Since I was young, I have seen one very close to my heart, and I had to give it to God. I tried to deal with it for years, but God finally gave me directions to break that unhealthy relationship from my life. To help me to stay on the straight path that God wants me to use my passion to pursue.
So here I am! Free of a lot of family bondage, things that were impacting my life. My life almost seems boring at points without the drama. I can tell you, great things have come of it. I have a healthy relationship with my boyfriend going on 8 months next Tuesday. I have great friendships all over the place. I have a calm life :) My best friend God is helping me through it all.
I have found in God, that yes, I am not perfect. But man, His grace, is more evident in my life now than it has ever been. I have had to experience grief, loss, mourning over the last 2 years of many different things. But I have had to be still, and know that God will fight on my behalf. Surrender is hard, but God's plan is going to make a lot more sense than mine would.
Some of the hardest pain I have dealt with in my life, has produced the strongest joy I have ever sensed in my life. Sometimes God's takes us through the valley, to produce strength, perseverance, humility, and in the end, He's got something special to reward you with :)
I am listening to How Great is Our God right now and just am overwhelmed by all the beautiful things happening in life. I have a job that I enjoy, I have an impact on the next generations, I am working at a Christian school. I have beautiful deep friendships to challenge me to grow. I have an awesome new best friend, Alvaro, my honorable boyfriend, who challenges me to grow, who is there for me, who loves Jesus, and loves me as well. I have a beautiful life, I have a car, I have a family who loves me, and I have protection all around me. Nothing is impossible. Trials come, there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning :)
The battle is still being fought, I see the mess, but I have done what needed to be done, now I watch God complete His plan through this mystery.
Freedom, true freedom is here. When I have no control, and I leave God to do what I think may be my responsibility. Surrender, passionate surrender.
FREEDOM! I'm running after the call, God, you are in control :)
Positivity, Joy, Social Work, Helping Others, Homelessness, Social Problems, Relationships, Pursuing the love of God all the days of my life <3
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