Life begins, you are young, you have your whole life in front of you. You graduate high school, next is the 18, independence, etc. College? Work? Marriage? Kids? Who knows what your plan will look like. God does.
We all have our own ideas of how life is supposed to be, and how it will turn out. I remember back in college thinking, I am going to be married by my senior year, and life will be just beginning, I will have my dream job, and I will be safe and sound.
I had the other days where I decided I might be single the rest of my life, and I accept that. My friends have one by one, gotten married, some have had kids! Some have jobs, some don't. Some went for Masters Degrees. Some have stayed in the home state of Illinois, Round Lake, others have relocated, others have traveled around the world, or are in the midst of discovering their career and how that will turn out.
What did you choose?
Daily we have choices. We have what actions we will take, who we hang out with, who we marry, we also have a choice to surrender all these things before the Lord instead of carrying this weight in our own hands.
Sometimes our families have plans for us, we have plans, our significant other has plans or what they think is correct, but sometimes God has an amazing plan that is way different than anyone could ever imagine or picture for their image of what they see in us.
Trusting in the Lord will help with all of this, along with having people in your life who trust in the Lord first before any human beings. People will fail you, organizations will fail you, but God is faithful, a wise professor Dr. Watson once said. It's so true.
I at points in my walk have strived for perfection, to be perfect, needless to say I fail. I don't know everything nor will I ever, hence why I trust in God. But that does not mean I'm going to act stupid. I know what is right and wrong, it's simple, it's in my Bible.
Recently Miley Cyrus has been quite the spectacle. I heard her song We Can't Stop, later hearing the video was terrible. My sister showed me it this summer, and she recorded my reaction. I was shocked, not like surprised, but stunned. Our world is going crazy, yes only God can judge us, but knowing that shouldn't we be getting ready now.
I fail, in areas, but I tell you one thing, to ask for forgiveness, step up, and keep moving, and living the life God has instructed us to live is so important. We need light in this world, because the light is alive, but we have yet to let it shine, change the light bulb and outshine this darkness.
In my challenges I have dealt with feeling like a failure, I was the go getter, passionate, and still am, but once my dream job didn't turn up, I was single, back in my hometown. I thought to myself, God, where is my door? What did I do?
Well needless to say, God wanted a light back here. I struggled, I hated it at points, I wanted to live my city lifestyle, have friends, help the homeless, and start fresh, and have distance from my family.
Needless to say I end up in the COU-BURBS (Country & Suburbs Combo), I live with my mom, I worked at my summer job, then Seasonal Target,unemployment, then I got a job at a PreK. Now I am a lunch lady/after school worker.
Needless to say my ideas were thrown out the window. I told God HOW MANY PEOPLE have the passion to work with homeless men? Here I am! LOL!
A little bit after my struggle I was starting to pick myself back up, my positive upbeat self was revived and God was renewing my strength. On top of all this there was a lot of family drama with money, relationships, and just immaturity and dysfunction. But this was my chance and I broke out of my family's ways. Which meant at points walking a lonely road, but I was never alone I had God by my side each step.
And then next came a beautiful thing, my first serious relationship with a man named Alvaro who loves God with all his heart. This is a beautiful thing, God has blessed, as well as the first man I have been able to trust fully. A healthy relationship, a refreshing start and someone to love and to grow with. He is the Mexican man I always dreamed of, and he cooks :) But I am in the process of learning don't worry!
I have dear friends that know me, and support me through the craziness of life. And I treasure them!
But one thing I have learned through all the craziness is to be joyful in all seasons.
When I was single and I was in several weddings, or my friends having kids, or my friends getting a job. I didn't compare, I didn't say oh man, my life sucks. I rejoiced with my friends in their times of joy. Why would I suck the fun out of a joyful season. So many people miss out because they think of themselves. In the midst of huge trials all at once I clung to God and trusted He would pull me out in the end and do something wonderful :)
Here I am now, healing has begun with my family. I have a wonderful boyfriend and we're about to celebrate a year pretty soon. I have a full time job, and I get to impact and share the love of Jesus with hurting kids from broken families.
So hold on, through every season, joy will come out when you least expect it. He's got something in store, quite the story, one you could never imagine.
So whatever season you are in, celebrate with others, pray and surrender to God your concerns or worries, trust in Him to pull you to a better place, or find the peace at your current spot and maybe that's what He wants from you.
Next of all my biggest learning experience through all of this is BE PATIENT. I am not patient, I am a rapid girl, bold, ready to go do some daring things. But God wants us to wait for His time, not our own time. He'll show you, step by step.
Trust in the Lord, lean not on your own understanding...
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