My mundane thing is waiting for my son to arrive out of my womb! My due date was yesterday and my body is working on it but nothing has happened yet for me to get to the hospital. My patience, UGH, is wearing thin. I'm ready to have my body back, to be able to run again, to be able to chase after my toddler or have space on my lap, to have more patience, to get rid of heartburn, and to hold my precious newborn Hazael in my arms.
God always has something to reveal to us. Mine this season has been preparing, resting, and also treasuring every moment. My daughter and I have fun daily playing with toys, reading, running, laughing, eating, etc. But these are the final moments of the 2 girls in the house while Papa is at work. Soon our house will be waking up to baby cries, to sharing the spotlight with a newborn, and to have to share her parents which will all be great lessons but also growing periods.
Well I am blessed to say I am prepared. Or at least I think I am. I have read books, I have my hospital bags packed. The house is clean, dishes done, my daughters necessities are packed and ready to go for Grandma. My mom blessed us and helped us do laundry this past weekend and it was such a blessing. See we live on the 3rd floor and laundry is in the basement so it is a workout, especially with the bump to go up and down the stairs. But I have never had swollen ankles during pregnancy so there is a plus. But hey I have a weakness, I did not do the freezer meal thing, there are some areas I'm still growing in. But I have gotten better since my last pregnancy, I remember it was the Sunday before Thanksgiving, I got the tree up, and that night my water broke. I left dishes in the sink, laundry I don't even remember. So this time I have become a better homemaker. But I still have a lot to grow in.
I'm blessed with this first year and 2 months to share with my Ellie Abaigael, she is a beauty, spunky, fun, and active little girl. It's amazing how she went from tummy time not having much to say or move too much to now walking at stores, loving Toys R Us, playing with toys, being able to hold puppets, talking, shrieking, eating food, communicating well when she needs something. She is the joy in our lives that God has blessed us with. I couldn't imagine life without her. She just adds so much extra joy into our life, it is a blessing.
Or even my husband and I, 2 years marriage in June and it's amazing what we have overcome in such a little time. Life changes, personality changes, learning how to fight fair, and to also love and respect each other in every part. I'm blessed to have a solid marriage and growing to be more rooted in God daily. Through prayer and commitment to each other, with God all things are possible.
And now we have our baby boy coming which honestly we only knew about him 4 and a half months along in the pregnancy. I never had morning sickness, or any big sign that I was expecting until I noticed something growing (a bump, a new baby), and it was amazing, we went in, found out a week later it was going to be a boy, and here we are waiting for him to greet us. We could not be more happy! It was a blessed surprise and an overjoyed one to my husband who excitedly said AWESOME when he found out it was another dude, so our estrogen filled house would have some balance.
God has taught me a lot in the last few years, how to be a better person, that I fall sometimes but that with God I can get up and run my race no matter what I do to mess it up. The devil tries to hold us back from our all, our joy, he tries to distract us, but believe me God can beat him any day. On a missions trip I took to New Jersey as a teenager there was a song, We fall down, But We Get Up, Cause a Friend is Just a Sinner Who Fell Down, But Got Up! It's true, we all fall short of the glory of God, but He, through Him, we can get up, be blessed, be a blessing and treasure what God has in store for us. If we focus our eyes on Him, or refocus if you lose your way.
Each moment God is waiting for us to press into Him to reveal something much bigger than what we see. Something that can refresh and change our life dramatically, and wake us up to something greater, the true reason why He has you where you are at. This year my husband and I are trying to do the Love Dare Devotion, and it's 365 days and I was gun-ho but then I forgot, but I do it, when I remember we do it, whether it is planned in the morning or a simple reflection after the baby is asleep late into the night, the goal is to focus and try to achieve it, even if my goal was to do it January 1st to December 31st, I'm going to do it, even though we might finish it in 2017.
In this season in my life I am dedicated to being a wife, taking care of my home, taking care of my daughter and soon to be coming son, go to church where I am a member at now, go to the Moms group, and trust in God each step and celebrate life. I also know my goal is to further myself, I may have a husband, kids, and a lot of things to do, but I still need God to give me everything I need to be all those things. Through Him I live and move and breathe. Life is full of plans, surprises, pitfalls, trials, and joys, but the one thing we have is eternity, God, and His love and Word to show us the true meaning of life. Here I am at 25, feeling great, but also knowing I have accomplished some things like getting my Bachelor's in Social Work, working, getting married, having children, reconciling with extended family, many things, but I know there is so much more to do, to go, to grow, to change, to press forward, and to shine for Him.
As I wait in longing to know our precious son Hazael, please pray for my labor to start soon, and that God will bless us in this new chapter with a 1 year old and 2 months, our 2nd going on 3rd year of marriage, and for the blessing of God in 2016 to our family, as well as to you. May God bless you all :)
Sincerely,
Heather Cheryl Perez
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